I’m not at all waving a tearful goodbye to 2006. In the spirit of making resolutions and plans for the new year, I’ve decided to not rush it. Most of us approach this concept with the same herd mentality we practice during a really good sale at Walmart. We rush to the store at the last minute, knock everyone else out of the way, grab the first likeness of what we wanted before anyone else can get their grubby little hands on it and allow ourselves to feel a misplaced sense of relief that from this moment we’re different somehow because we said so.
Change is definately good and change, if we really do consider it our friend, will not be permitted to just show up and expect free food. The relationship we have with ourselves is what dictates our relationship with others, other people and other situations. Indeed our relationship with our “self” becomes our relationships and in turn our lives.
So this year, instead of making a list of things I’m going to stop doing and things I’m going to start doing, I’ve made myself a daily schedule. I literally wrote out on paper hourly what it is I’ll be doing 6 days a week, leaving flexible time for necessary shopping and errands. I haven’t made any drastic changes because frankly, I think I’ve had too many of those due mostly to my own bad and impulsive choices or just plain denial about reality at important moments in my life. I don’t have the energy, ambition or even interest in “drastic” anything. This may be what’s supposed to happen when we get to be of a certain age. Today being my birthday, it occurs to me, I’m there, its time to walk through the door to the rest of my life building on what I have, not settling on living as if survival is the main event, or as if anyone else in my life gets to decide what mine is like.
My main intention is to continue to be happy, and to earn that happiness by my own efforts, daily, as I maintain a better sense of my relationship with myself, reminding myself that now is exactly where I put myself and that there are so many amazing things I can do with it. I have so much to be grateful for; I suppose my biggest intention is really to keep it that way.
I wish for you the happiness of creation that’s possible in every day that you live this new year. Love, joy and blessings start where you are. Begin there. Look at what you have and who you are. You now have 365 brand new days and counting, make the best of them.
“New Year’s Day… now is the accepted time to make your regular annual good resolutions. Next week you can begin paving hell with them as usual.” ~Mark Twain
